Scattered Update

Life is a weird grey area right now. I'm happy but I'm not. I want to stay but I want to go. I want to do everything but I want to do nothing. All at the same time.

Health issues are keeping me out of training right now. I've been exploring some gentle alternatives that I can do with what little energy I seem to have. Yoga is my bff right now. It's not the same as running strongman implements and I miss lifting heavy. I miss having a solid workout. I know I should go to the doc, but I've been through this for years. Every time we come back to it "likely" being IBS and you just have to manage it and figure out your trigger foods. And minimize your stress.  Oh, yeah, okay. Let me just take a vacation from life. (Insert middle finger emoji here)

And so....I've retreated to reading. Volumes of poetry. Books on Buddhism and meditation and Zen. Memoirs of travel and adventure. Words and words and words until I doze out on the couch or in bed. And still I want more.

I am insatiable. In every facet.

There's more happening, but I'm not ready to delve into that chaos just yet.

This weekend, I took Friday off work and went camping with man friend and his friends. Friday night, I fell asleep in my hammock for a few hours while the fellas played guitar and chatted around the campfire. It was brilliant. We spent the weekend sweaty and dirty, washing off by playing in Lake Huron. We cooked meals over the campfire and I ate s'mores until I thought my teeth would fall right out of my head from all the sugar. We had drinks and played euchre late into the night and stole deals and hands from opponents left and right. It was a great weekend away. I am content with that.

Even if I have been ingesting ginger like it's going out of style and living off the blandest foods possible now. Damned if I do and damned if I don't so I may as well occasionally enjoy things that'll piss off my stomach anyway.

This week is the lead up to Midsummer Valkyrie. It's going to be a good time. I'm so excited to have everyone there again. It's a smaller contest than December was, but I expect this next December one to be just as big as the last. The final week is interesting. Prepping last minute details, finalizing shirts and awards and the flow of the contest. And fielding last minute questions and people dropping from the contest. Being a promoter is a lot of work. But so very, very worth it. I love doing it and am already throwing ideas around for the next. Mostly, I'm pumped for some truck pull. Woot!

I started this with the intent to focus on one topic. And then I ended up scattered. I can't settle my brain onto one topic, but it seems a shame to delete the whole thing. So I leave you all with this mess of a post. Something coherent will be incoming soon, I promise.

Love <3