So there's this....

...I have no idea why I'm doing this.

I've had a blog before. It kept me focused on the journey and had a decent number of hits whenever I posted. But, as with most things....it faded as life got busier. It's a great connection to other humans, though. And my inner Word Nerd loves to write. So I guess we give it another go....

Let's start with a confession. The first half of this year, I was going heavy and hard in training. After the end of June, I needed a break. Took some down time, went on an 8 day trip to Montana (that in itself deserves its own post - it did more for me mentally and emotionally that I can even sum up right here), and puttered about in the gym. Got the harebrained idea to put on a contest, set that in motion, finally started back up in training myself.....then I started a new job, which has blown my world apart for 3 weeks. Three weeks of barely being active at all has just....deflated me. Strongman has been my therapy for a year and a half....lifting in general has been my sanity-maker for the past three. Being active has always been my therapy. I've begun to go stir crazy in my own head. And my motivation to do anything other than eat, sleep, and drag myself through the day has been non-existent.

So what the hell am I doing?

Finally. I finally feel a little more in control....finally relit the fire to get back into my groove. I had already decided to spend the rest of the year focusing on strength. No competing, no weight cuts, just eating and lifting. Of course, that lasted about a  minute before I started eyeballing a contest. Throwing the idea of competing in December around. Though it would be just before the contest I'm hosting, so I haven't decided yet if it's a great idea or not.

Why tell you all this? Maybe I just need to reinforce in my own head that it's okay. It's okay to be lukewarm sometimes. It's okay to focus on other parts of life for a while. It's okay to have to re-stoke the fire. It's okay and it doesn't dim my passion or fire for the sport. I still love strongman. I love nothing more than introducing it to other people....especially women. There is nothing more beautiful that watching the pride and excitement on a woman's face when she lifts/pulls/moves something she thought to be impossible.

Here we go then. Watch as I figure out how to balance life and achieve these goals. Somewhere between work, private practice, training, coaching, climbing...and, oh yeah, still having a personal life....maybe I can make it all work. Maybe I'll bring a bigger, stronger, faster package to competition next summer.

Or maybe I'll activate the escape button and go sell trinkets to tourists on a beach somewhere. ;)